If you’re waiting for my review of James, unfortunately, you won’t find it here. I tried, I really did, I read it through a few times. Usually with kids being noisy in the background, or while waiting for supper to cook, so I was distracted. I tried at bedtime, too, but I kept falling asleep.
So yes, I failed. But, even through that, I’ve learned, and I’ve been humbled. Being busy, or being tired, or whatever other excuse I can come up with is not a reason for not being in God’s word. There is no valid excuse. And if I’m not right in there, I’m missing that opportunity for growth, and for learning. ( Incidently, I’m also no longer a Proverbs Lady)
Here’s the other thing that I learned. I’ve been putting off writing this post, because I was embarrassed, ashamed even, that I failed at reading James every day. I didn’t want my blogging friends to know. But really, does that even matter if they know? Because God knows! He already knew every day that went by, when I put off reading until it was too late in the day. He knew all the excuses that I made to myself. In the end, it doesn’t matter what my friends think, or how spiritual they thought that I was. All that matters is what I did for God, and how I lived my life for Him.
He knew! And He loves me anyway.
I’m still ashamed that I failed at reading James everyday. But not because of what my friends will think. Because of what my God will think. All that He’s done for me, and I couldn’t find the time to read a little tiny book everyday?
Well, it’s a new month and with that a new book of the Bible. It’s also a very busy month. But this time, reading the book of Habbukuk is at the top of my priority list, not at the very bottom, at the when I can get to it kind of place. Today’s the 4th of December and today is also the first time this month that I read it. But, I read first thing this morning, after Ray had left, but before the kids were up. Very quiet house. And that’s my plan.
Shannon, I love you for coming up with this idea. I just need to remember that I’m doing it for God and for myself, not so I can have my name on the sidebar of Shannon’s blog. And if I fail again, it’s not my friends that I’m accountable too.
So I’m going to try again. But with my priorities in place this time. Yes, I failed last month. But I learned and I’ve even grown through failure.
Which kind of makes it doesn’t seem so much like failure, but a learning process!